Monday, August 3, 2009

The Breeze Is On My Back, Through The Window (???)

The breeze is on my back, through the window,
From the sky.
Writing this to while away the time,
Better than nothing.
Being used to pen without intoxication
Has not come about,
My words are clumsy.
My life is nicer, the trade-off.
My career may be over but at least I'm happy.
Talk of nickel backs and I-formation
Comes at me from my right side, funny voices
Meant for little boys and hero worship.
The running back almost broke free.

Fly In My Soup (10/22/95)

Only moments crop up, bad seconds.
This is an improvement, reversal.
Only stopped shooting my feet, no big deal.
Now, I'll tell you a dream.
I was a spy, running through the
Rain-soaked streets of my
hometown, late at night.
My heels, my black sophisticated spy shoes,
make a movie sound, bouncing off brick.
The roads are mild cobblestones.
Whatever I am running for, I am too late.
Prevention, intervention, I am not sure.
I had that dream five years ago.
Last night I dreamed that my best friend
beaned me in a charity baseball game.
Hit me right on the ass.
Point being, salvage the broth
and eat some bread.

River My Secrets (1995)

To the delta over sand I come
Over rock and under fault
To throw my freshness to your salt
To mix with fish to hear them hum

River my secrets to your ocean
Roll my riddles in your foam

Flute Made Of Bone (1994)

Bloodied once still singing
Heart is thumping ears are ringing
And the air is passing through
Me
It's not stopping at my chest
It sears my feet it shakes my throne
I'm made of bone
Don't help me I have fallen
I can do it I'm not calling
I'll just listen to you chime
I can't bear to watch you climb
Play that little tune
Chills me to the bone
The flute was walking once
It sings through living lips

Blind Boner (???)

Won't you be a mother to my son
The son in me you know the one
That annoying one they talk of
That inner one that smaller me
That bullshit crap of craps
And yet it's true he wants
A mother just like you

He'll drink all the milk he will
A toothless suckle, mother, he will
Pucker up and suck you dry
But not for long he'll feed again
You'll offer up -

Coffee? What? What did you say?
You need a father for your daughter?
Yeah, but see, I asked you first
You think I can? You think I could?
But I'm not sure (as if you are, I know...)
I'm just a guy it's hard for me to say
It's hard for me to see
It's hard for me
It's hard, for you
It's hard

Midwest and Spartan (early 1990's)

Midwest and spartan
brazen and shy
soul trailing smoke
and the pungent droppings of
a childhood equestrian dream

I've Strapped My Anger To The Innermost Molecule (???)

I've strapped my anger to the
innermost molecule, it is larger
and smaller than I but
certainly stronger, it will not be
denied.

But, for now, I pretend it doesn't exist.

Yes, my days are long, what with every
imagined battle fought with pillows
and baggage, my mind is bruised from
all those violent shadows,
so my nights must be filled by my intellect.

For we smile at each other all day long, believe it or not,
such a crime against the both of us,
the innermost molecule, man.

There is no denial without knowledge.

With My Tongue (???)

(A minor to F)

I'm gonna throw a rock through
That window back there
That window back there

I'm gonna come back with a
Rock right in my hand
Hole right in my hand

I'll stomp a hole in the ground
That I've walked so long
That I'll walk so long

I'll stomp down to China yes
I'll chomp right down through
I'll chomp right down top

I'll bite off the mountaintop
I'll chew it right down
I'll chew it right down

I'll swallow the ocean yes
Lick my lips of it
Lick my lips of it

I'll eat through to the fire
I'll eat through to the fire
Digest volcano

I'll vomit a new ozone
Puke it right over
Puke it right over

I'll take the flag down from the
moon with my tongue with
my tongue with my tongue with my tongue

Nobody (10/8/08)

Nobody cares
Nobody's listenin'
Nobody's there
At Blackberry Way
I don't care
If they ain't listenin'
'Coz I ain't talkin' to them
Anyway

Pretty soon you won't be famous
And everything will stay the same
Hit the showers 'coz it's too late to play the game
Too early for collapse
Fall down later at Blackberry Way
Call me later at Blackberry Way

Your dream got killed on Blackberry Hill

Our Love Is Better Than We (???)

Our love is better than we
had it legs it would run faster
had it lungs it would breathe deeper

Our love is sweeter than we
were it man made it would cause cancer
were it hard it would be candy

Our love is softer than we
were we softer we'd be air
were it harder would be sweet

sloppy guitar solo, diving bass, thunder drum roll

Our love is louder than we
had it amps it would blow doors
had it bells it would ring ears

Our love is higher than we
were it a drug we would be dead
were it a ladder oh the rungs
we don't live up to it
it doesn't mind

The Guilty King (???)

He'd send for servants.

Testing, he'd ask them to please.

Breathless and willing,
heaving and shy,
removing their garments,
they pressed against him.

He'd recoil and send them away.

His feet, delicate and remorseful,
were outlined against marble by moonlight.

A thought, temporary and laughable,
discarded at once but true,
passed through his brain -

"I'll kill them for their lust."

"Send for them again, I'll try again!"
he would proclaim, and as always
it would end in solitude
and imaginary murder.

He would have been less guilty had he
actually killed.

The Ballad of Samuel Clemens (1991)

Put the oar in put the oar down
Put the oar in move it all around
We're in some corrugated tin
We're in some corrugated tin
We're looking to find our sin
Take me to the place where the water meets the low mark
Then take me to the place where the water hits the twain
Take me to that place where the water hits the high mark
Take me to the place where the water meets the plain
Oh pioneers
Oh pioneers
Take me to the bridge take me to the hollow
Take me to where the bridge hangs over
Take me to the hollow take me to the dell
Take me down baby down that wishing well
Take me to the shallow water take me to the deep
Take me to the bridge let me take the leap
Take the husk from Jim who's eating crow
Take it from someone who ought to know
Take me to the bridge where my brother cried
And I'll stick with you til the last dog dies
That boat is gliding through the dark
We'll keep that boat a riding baby
Until we hit that mark

Salizar (1994)

Salizar runs
all day
his breath is endless
his sweat is spray

this sun is all his own
it's all he's from
this Salizar
this running stride
this climbing ride

Salizar sleeps
all night
his dream is calm
from dusk to light

Salizar is running every day

Passed Lamenting's Past (1993)

I've led my life through windows
Now I'm staring down them doors
I'm trying to get up the nerve
To stop staring past my shoes at the floor

If I've led you on I'm sorry
This is all I have to give
I've tried everything I can
I've tried so hard to forgive

But am I worthy of forgiveness
If my limits are so tight and low
I've got my fears all neatly pressed
I've lined my thoughts in tiny rows

And I'm never where I seem to want to be
And I'm always who I think you think is me
I'm returning if I can I want to refuse to live in fear

So I'll put the grindstone to my nose
I'll file neuroses off like skin
I'll drop my faults just like little bricks
I won't even flinch

If I've taken from you I'm sorry
That is all I had to give
I've done everything I was supposed to
I've done everything but live

But am I worthy of my life
If I cannot sense its touch
Are my emotions all artificial
Or just some kind of truthful crutch

Then my passing lamentations pass
Before me like a peering juried eye
I'm returning if I can I want to refuse to live in fear

Eat and breathe

Quick As A Whip (2007)

It was so fun and tragic
I could never really join his team
We were both so far from home
We were so young so on the gleam

Foreign tongue swirled around us
Under table hand on knee
What the heck I love The Smiths
Maybe I don't know the real me

I had to let him down so easy
The stubble turned me off
Still, a relief to not feel sleazy
As I lit his Davidoff

I'd started with Gauloises
With the beer they made me cough
He railed about the laws in Britain
Which pissed him and his friend David off

He was tall and he was handsome
He was quick, quick as a whip
But I had to slow him down
Just as he bit my lip

I had a girl back home Stateside
He had a guy in London town
I was not all the way gay
And he was dying to go down

The Pearl (05/12/04)

The Pearl of Rufton County
Started with a little grain of sand
The mountain and the valley were
The oyster and the shell
The well brings water from the land

I send this wish into the canyon
Hoping for a swift reply
If the rock deigns me an echo
I will crown you with this cry

The girl grew into bounty
Ushered by her family's hand
The pointed toes and the ribbons bore
The whisper and the yell
The bell's ring brought her to the stand

I send this wish into the canyon
I hold my heart I watch it fly
Each dawn I see a new Melody
Sung from your eyes

The Liberator II (fall '04)

I'm gonna get out of this one
Thought I as I rotated on the rack
The fire on my balls didn't give me pause
I knew that I had to make it back
I'm getting out of this one
Thought I as the hot rod probed my ass
The water dripping on my hand made me see red
I knew my sin had brought all this to pass
I said a mass inside my head
I thought the Devil couldn't find me

Just Another Old Man On A Mountain Top (2004)

Just another old man on a mountain top
Made me so mad I just about blew my top
My sidecar motorbike was vanished by the valet
He came back and ushered me into Hitler's chalet

Koreatown (The Science Of Faith) (2005)

The sun's set somewhere
I don't think of it much
I've got a touch of such and such
And this and that all of above
You've gotta love gotta love gotta love
Somebody...

Meet me down in Koreatown
By that time I'll have come back down...

The moon is a flame
I've always been a fly
You were tried and true, g'bye, g'bye
If you don't the goons soon up will show
I gotta go gotta go gotta go
So high...

Dress out of the drawer
Walk stairs out your door
Hurry the driveway into car
Ignition - fireball
Dove down down down down
To Koreatown

Oh, it's not that I can't stop
It's that you won't...
Let me drop this pop
And you won't ever forget me
Don't say I'm too far gone
Just give me one last ride
Up to Sunset and L. Ron

I'm Like Tennis, Baby (late 2005)

I'm like tennis, baby
Zero is love
I went from fifteen to thirty
Without blinkin' one eye
Don't give a fuck
I'm gonna raise a racket
Can't hack it?
Get off the court
Born short learn to limbo quick
That stick never gets no higher
A liar'll tell you it does
This is my shout at it cuz
Yo Pimp - I be limping
Thru the p-leg funk
Drunk uncle monk or monkey
It don't matter - the splatter
From my mike'll push you off any ledge
I don't hedge my best I put it all on red
Or black - don't give a fuck jus'
Like the Crack-A-Lack
Buckin' the system
Fuckin' your cyst...mmmm
That pus is jus delish
Love the fingerlickin' lemon chicken
Rose petal fish
The Bomer-B can get raunchy too
Launch me goo on you
'Coz I'm a leper con
Climbin' up your rainbow
Let you know I'm divin' into
Your golden honey pot
It ain't coins that I'm finding in your loins
Our groins -
Dress me up in green keep me under your toadstool