Passed Lamenting's Past (1993)

I've led my life through windows
Now I'm staring down them doors
I'm trying to get up the nerve
To stop staring past my shoes at the floor

If I've led you on I'm sorry
This is all I have to give
I've tried everything I can
I've tried so hard to forgive

But am I worthy of forgiveness
If my limits are so tight and low
I've got my fears all neatly pressed
I've lined my thoughts in tiny rows

And I'm never where I seem to want to be
And I'm always who I think you think is me
I'm returning if I can I want to refuse to live in fear

So I'll put the grindstone to my nose
I'll file neuroses off like skin
I'll drop my faults just like little bricks
I won't even flinch

If I've taken from you I'm sorry
That is all I had to give
I've done everything I was supposed to
I've done everything but live

But am I worthy of my life
If I cannot sense its touch
Are my emotions all artificial
Or just some kind of truthful crutch

Then my passing lamentations pass
Before me like a peering juried eye
I'm returning if I can I want to refuse to live in fear

Eat and breathe